So back in December 2011 I had to figure out how to break the cancer news to my “world”. What better place than Facebook hey?
Reading back over these statuses just makes me amazed at how cheerful and upbeat I seemed to be. No outward sign to the world of the devastation this was wreaking. Nothing to indicate that I came home from that first surgery and sobbed on our wardrobe floor for an hour…
And see! I thought it would all be OVER by February. Hah! Visiting the chemo suite won’t be over until February this year. I will be taking Tamoxifen until 2017, and I still need more surgery to finish off my new breasts. I was so naive.
DECEMBER 7 2011
Sitting down? Comfortable?
GOOD NEWS: my surgeon is lovely and I like her. She was receptive to my “clinical researcher” questions and there was some intelligent discussion about hazard ratios and outcome statistics. Tumour is small and because of where it is she felt strongly that a wide excision (lumpectomy) was my best option. This means that surgery on Friday should be relatively simple and I probably won’t even stay overnight in tne hospital. I’m on track to be back at work on schedule and may even go back a week earlier (I LOVE MY JOB!)
THE BAD NEWS: My tumour receptor status came back this morning and the news on this is not so good. I am ER+ PR+ and Her2+(3+). The first two are good. The last one makes it BAD. This takes my 5yr survival down from 93% to 77% immediately and the news could be worse if this thing has made it through my lymph nodes to other parts of my body, which we don’t know yet.
Surgery Friday. Follow-up clinic next Thursday when I will find out if this has made it to my lymph nodes. After that I will have appts in the next few weeks with a rad onc and the chemo onc, because I will need both. They will find out if I have cancer spread to anywhere else…
WHAT DOES THIS MEAN IN THE NEXT FEW MONTHS?
I will be back at work in the new year 🙂 I will start chemo and have been assured by the wonderful breast specialist nurse today that MANY MANY women undergoing chemo continue to work successfully. I may need to work some days at home though and I may need a few days off. I was very concerned about this because in my job I see the instances of problems, not the many many people with no problems or side-effects.
I will lose my hair. Tony just gave me my Christmas present early because of this. He bought me a GHD hair straightener :-). I’ll use it a lot in the next few weeks 🙂 Then I will worship it from afar for 6 months.
PS (if you are still with me) I’m tired. Please do plan on coming and giving me a hug next week, but please don’t everyone phone this week as I am out having prep stuff done. And, DON’T use the word sad around me. Sad is for funerals and I’m a fair way off one of those right now :-)”